Welcome to perhaps the most tranquil corner of the web site of salli-kromsali.

I am your servant, may I light your cigarette?

This page is based on the vibes that Love You to Death by Type O Negative gives me. You should give it a listen, it's very sexy.

To better describe what kind of vibes I get from this one particular song by this one band that broke up 10 years ago...

It feels...surreal. I get a feeling that I can only describe as a high when I listen to this. It's very relaxing to listen to, as if your muscles just melt away. You transcend. The lyrics themselves are questionably beautiful. So dark yet so romantic. The experience one could get from listening to this is beyond an ordinary individual's understanding. The only limit is the person listening to this song. Their experience could either be positive or negative, or somewhere in between. You don't even notice that you've been listening to this for seven minutes until the song ends. The feeling fades away. During this time I typically feel a sadness. This feeling, almost like a high...it is a good feeling. I tend to miss it until I get to listen to the song again. I find myself to be listening to this repeatedly, sometimes for hours at a time. Time passes. I don't realise it. The song is pleasantly cold, it feels like I'm in a basement. But that's just synesthesia speaking.

As for what the song is about...there is no set meaning as far as I'm concerned. It's all up for interpretation. However, several people have described the song as being about someone who is madly in love with a girl, wanting to prove his love. As far as I've seen, anyway. I think that's what the song is about. Liking someone so much that you're willing to serve them. You're willing to do something ungodly to prove your love, even if that means harming somebody, or yourself. That's what makes it a sexy listen.

...of course, that's just me. Other people may have different experiences and interpretations. And that's okay. I just thought it would be nice to share my personal experiences, as this is one of my favourite songs, and I relate to it on another level. Sure, maybe I won't go as far as to do something stupid in order to prove my love to someone, but for some reason, this song is...relatable in one way or another. We've all probably had at some point been so in love with someone that we'd do anything for them. Or feeling like you're not good enough for someone you really like.

How did I discover Love You to Death?

It's quite simple, actually. I was looking for songs to put in one of my Spotify playlists. When I was younger my mother told me about this one band called Type O Negative (though she said Type Of Negative) so I checked them out, as I had never done so before. The first TON song I ever listened to was Anesthesia. It's a good song. Thinking this, I thought, "Hey, this is by those Type O Negative people my mother talked about!" Love You to Death was the second song of theirs I listened to. As soon as I started listening I was enchanted, for lack of a better word. I felt something more extreme than the high feeling I feel now. Almost as if I was...transcending. Phasing through reality. Ever since that time, I have listened to it everyday for months. Note that this all happened a few months ago. 6 months ago I listened to Anesthesia, and 3 months ago Love You to Death started appearing in my playlists.

Poetry

I have decided to write a poem based on the feeling I described earlier.
Here it is. It's shit, but it's whatever.

Shall I prove I mean what I'm saying?

by Nicolae.

I hate you.

You've only been good to me,
but I still hate you.

You wanna know why?

It's because you feel so good. You feel too good.

I can't see you, I can't hear you, I can't feel you,
but you feel so good.

You allow me to escape from this hell people call reality,
but once you're there, I can't go back.

You give me a high like no other, and I can't focus on anything else.

I used to be obsessed with you, abusing you simply to feel something, anything.
Now I wish I had stayed numb.

I hate you. I hate you so, so much.

Now, you might be confused as to why the word hate is used, and why it sounds like I'm upset when I had stated that the feeling is great. I never specified that the person in the poem was me. This is actually about another person experiencing the exact same feeling, but they're upset about it. Why? Because they've become so dependent on the feeling to feel something, anything, to the point where it affected their life.
...now that I think about it, I kinda feel the same way. I have trouble feeling things. For the longest time I haven't been able to feel anything other than sadness, emptiness, despair. I've become so dependent on the feeling that I actually need to listen to the song while going through something in order to feel something, anything. Even when I'm doing relatively okay, I can't really feel it. It's not necessarily a bad thing but I wish I could be "normal" again.

But that's just me. ;)

I'll update this page later, it's almost 4 A.M.

Work in progress.